So come on, get higher

Breathe you out, breathe you in
You keep coming back to tell me
You're the one who could've been
And my eyes see it all so clear
It was long ago and far away
But it never disappears

Try to put in the past
Hold on to myself
And don't look back

I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
That maybe I could live without
When I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now?
I'll get it all figured out
When I'm out from under

So let me go
Just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us
Growing deeper and much darker everyday
Watch me now
And I'll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken
It will open up for everyone but you

Even when I cross the line
It's like a lie I've told a thousand times

And part of me still believes
When you say you're gonna stick around
And part of me still believes
We can find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try
So let's just say goodbye forever

Barrettes

And banana chocolate chip muffins.

Books and NPR, two of my dearest friends, for which I am so grateful. The obvious statement would be to say that I've learned so much from them. But our relationship goes beyond that.

NPR keeps me company when the house is too quiet or the drive is long. It puts me to sleep when I would otherwise lay in bed all night, kept awake by reminiscence of the past or desperate dreams of the future.

Books take me away when the last place I want to be is here. But more often, the voices remind me that here and now is the best place to be. It's the only place to be.

It gets lonely often now and people aren't always readily available. But books and NPR are always there.

:) I was a bookworm and a loner growing up. Some things never change.

"My girl is always telling me to "dream it up." She is one of the few who know that we create our experience and physical environment based on our beliefs and thoughts. Those who wait for outer experiences to make them happy are at a large disadvantage. Happiness is simply a choice based on our desire for it - and our corresponding outer experiences will mold themselves to reflect our inner state. This one's for you darling." http://www.paulbondart.com

Blueberry muffins [+ potted purple calla lilies] for my mom's birthday breakfast. She's happy. And these were dee-lish! :)
( 3 pictures I wanted to share awhile ago. )

Someone dear to me said once, "I think you love and connect with music so much because it brings you to certain times in your life." This is true. And having never been good with words myself, I've often found that someone else's lyrics express my feelings and thoughts completely. Not being a musician, I connect more to the words of a song than the instrumentals behind them, though certainly we can all appreciate good music. Sometimes I sit down to write but leave with a blank page and all that I hear is a song replaying over and over in my head. Even though the words do not belong to me, I still want to share them, in hopes that they reach the people I think of when I listen to these songs. Perhaps some day I can even sing for them.

This is for a young man named Joseph, whom I had the pleasure of meeting last weekend. Know that God created you exactly the way you are and with a purpose. Seek that purpose and fulfill it with all your heart. I can't wait to see the gifts you have to share with everyone around you.

True Colors - covered by Olivia Ong, originally by Cyndi Lauper

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh, I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Makes you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid
To let them show
Your true colors, true colors
Are beautiful like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
Don't be unhappy
Can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there